Wow, am I ever NOT good at keeping myself together when I have to go away from my wife. A couple weeks away for aaaaaarrrrrrrmmmmyyy training, sir! and I simply lose my base. God should suffice, but I don't seem to stay that strong without her, too. Is that crazy? Is that faithless?
So I'm torn. I think of myself as strong, capable, itelligent, yet cannot keep focus, direction or sense of being. No, I'm not imploding or considering a brief stint as a postal employee. I'm just simply reflecting on my seeming loss of identity when I'm not with her. She is my better half - and believe me, the BETTER half.
So these two weeks signify a strain on my monastic experience. Virtually everything has fallen through and I look forward to some redemption when I return home. God forgive me for not finding my sufficiency in you - but then you know me well...
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